Lately I've been soooo tired...but then night comes & I lie in bed & suddendly I have all of these great plans, like how I should fix up the treehouse & paint the interior, or how I should sell all of my unwanted books right away(!), right this second so I can go to Hastings & I can earn a little bit more money. Or I'll be at work in a complete daze, scanning books to send off (& sneaking in little messages inbetween the pages =) and I just have to start writing, because if I don't, these words will leave me & I'll wonder what I meant to write down but never did. And lately I feel like I have this idea for story, but it's just bits & pieces submerging every now & then. And then I think about myself two years ago, how I was then. Just the same person, but far more hopeful & yeah, worrying a bit, but I was on the verge of something more than just starving and going off to college. I can't explain it, but I'm hoping that where I am now is where I'm meant to be. I'm always worrying about that, and hoping that with everyday I'm doing the right things.

Blah. I'm not making much sense, but really, what I'm trying to say that half of the time I feel like I'm not enough, not enough, not enough. And then the other half of the time I'm trying to fix myself & make myself better. I just need sleep, badly, and springtime even more.

At least tommorow is the end of the end of the week =). That means scrambled egg night at the Braun/Cheek house! I had so much fun last week...we made eggs & sang songs & played hide & seek in the dark with flashlights & had a shadowpuppet show & eat icing out of jars while telling secrets & taking polaroids. It was just a nice way to unwind. & I'm getting really exited at the idea of next year, living in this house with all of these old friends (& Sydney & hopefully Alex & Cass visiting alot). For some reason I feel like it's almost too picturesqe & I'm hoping that it'll happen. I don't think I'll get homesick with them, or if I do, they know that I'm panicy like that sometimes, so it'll be alright.

I've rambled SO MUCH! Oh well. I'm gonna study for Phonetics & sleep. =)
Hope everyone is doing really really well!!!